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2016-08-23 10:22 pm
OK so when I said 123 was superior song to TukiTuki-ZokuZoku (it looks weird no matter how you try to romanize it LOL) I may have been wrong hahaha. I think 123 is more "fun" in my head because 1. nostalgia and 2. I know all the words and it's really fun to sing and do the dance and 3. it has catchy english crap in it so my friends can easily catch on to it and play along LOL.

I don't know the dance to tktkzkzk at all, but it probably would be super fun to sing if I knew the words. But I haven't put any effort into learning the words really XD And idk the dance is probably not as fun as 123 dance honestly, 123's dance was meant to be catchy and funny so people would do it on their own and make videos of themselves doing the dance and stuff.... like it was so simple and dumb and fun that just watching it you wanted to go along with it, hopping around and stuff. I mean, look at this lol.

OK, I went to find a dance cover of tktkzkzk and found this vid which other than the camera not being stabilized is really cool and there's a cute guy (well all the guys are kinda cute but I really like the tall guy LOL, in some of the other vids one of the other guys looks even cuter???) and they do a lot of hp vids and they have some drag queens in their group too omg.

I can't really tell who is who between vids because face blindness and IDK if in some of them it's just some other tall guy who isn't as cute or if he's just not cute without mustache LOL

omggggg they did Masara Blue Jeans and tall cute guy is Nacky... not only is he my fav member but this song has the hump thrusting section where they sing "Even if I'm being noisy *heavy thursting* LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME LOVE ME" (this song was originally sung by like 8 year olds with this same dance LMFAO)

OK his name is Yuki because they credit the dancers in the desc, in tktkzkzk he was Akari and that also says Yuki so it's the same guy XDDD Now I can look for Yuki in the descs to know if it's him or not XD It's kinda weird that I know like... what position is which girl in the dances though LOL Well, it helps that they also wear their member colors... Like I knew in Blue Jeans that the position Yuki was in was either MaiMai or Nacky's spot, but I wasn't sure which, but since he was wearing blue (and the other person in the same spot on 'flank' on the other side had yellow) I knew who it was XD For Akari's position, it was easy because she sings prominent lines and stuff in that song XDD

But the colors are not always reliable because I was watching their vid for A little corner of the world called Tokyo (the "official" English names and lyrics for the songs are so messed up, like they just use Google translate and that's how you get stuff like songs called "GUNDAN" of the Love instead of "Love Corps," and lyrics like "warmth like home unawares" and "notice my sign with my breast cleavage hey" and shit which are the namesakes of my blogs and stuff LOL)

ANYWAY in the Tokyo song, he's wearing Makino's color (which I loooooooooooove Makino and I just assumed he was dancing Makino at first so I was really excited) but then I realized he was in Ikuta's position because Ikuta becomes prominent in the second verse and it's obvious that's her spot XD Also the guy in Ogata's spot in that vid is hot too... Actually so is the one in Nonaka's LOL The guy in Suzuki's position is cute in a different way XD I like the girl doing Ishida's part, too.

OK I don't even remember what this post was originally about... Oh yeah, tukitukizokuzoku vs 123. LOL. Oh well I don't even care anymore, this group is so fun *_*

BTW they are still working on the roof... but it seems like it's just one or two people doing light stuff. I thought maybe they were cleaning up but sometimes there's still hammering. It's 10:30PM now. They've been up there for more than 14 hours. They took one break for 30 minutes the entire day... It's quiet enough that it doesn't bother me at this point, with just the one person, and they're not like slamming down heavy objects and shaking the whole apartment and stuff... and the hammering is usually light and far away. But I can't believe they are still working...

ETA: OK everyone seems to dance the same girl's parts in each vid, so Yuki is always Ikuta... in Oh My Wish he is so fantastic like... he doesn't have the mustache but his dancing is so nice and he can kick so high and his legs and alksdjflaksdfj Also the girl doing Oda in this one is SO cute but I don't think she was in the other as Oda??? I mean barely being able to make out their faces and having face blindness I just go off stuff like hairstyle and height so idek if they like... wear their hair different or have a hat I suddenly can't tell who it is anymore so... OK yeah she's credited as Oda in the other vids, she just changed her hair LOL.

ETA2: omfg I'm watching like an entire 45-minute performance concert thing of them alskdfjalksdjf Yuki is awesome he even does the like acro stuff, I'm glad he does Ikuta's parts LOL

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2016-08-23 04:05 pm
I'M GETTING A PHONE CALL TODAY IS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE OMFG

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2016-08-23 03:50 pm


BTW This is the desktop wallpaper I've been meaning to show off lmfao. I just barely edited an existing pic and stretched it lol.

Also I used to have him as my FB profile picture and posted lots of pics of him on FB and my grandmother legit thought that Naoki was my boyfriend (like, she thought that was Dennis LOLLL and was telling my mom that she thought Dennis was handsome and made a comment about him being Chinese (she refers to all East Asian people as Chinese) and my mom was like wtf???? and then asked her why she thought he was Asian and my grandma was saying like she sees him on my facebook and stuff and he looks very Asian and my mom was like uh do you mean the profile pic guy???? LOLOLOL this happened when I was not around but my mom told me about it and then later I met up with my grandmother and she told me about it too and asked me why I had a picture of a Chinese man as my picture and not my boyfriend LOLLL

This was like a year ago or something but it's still funny XD

And yeah she always calls everything Chinese and sometimes she's like "Oh I saw this job listing for people who speak Chinese..." or like "Why don't you go to China and teach English since you know Chinese?" and stuff and I'm like "Grandma, I speak Japanese; it's very different..." but she just is like "But don't they speak Chinese in Japanese too?" or something like she just really doesn't get it lol. It's cute and she doesn't intend to be racist or anything like she's just very old and confused. Sometimes she'll be like "Oh, so Japanese have their own language from the other Chinese people?" and I'm like "Yes, it's different..." and she'll seem to get it but just go back to calling everything Chinese again. I think she just literally thinks the word "Chinese" means "Asian" or something XD

The roof people are taking a break right now so I have a little peace??? I mean I'm really worked up over it so I can't really relax but at least I'm not like feeling like I'm going to die. But it seems like they're coming back already lol FML. When well they finish our building??? It's not a very big building... I hope this doesn't keep up all week...

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2016-08-23 02:51 pm
OK I forgot that my dad like... watches TV and then watches stuff on his phone/tablet at the same time so its like ... just more sound/voices things on top of the already bad stuff and I'm dying I want to die right now..............................

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2016-08-23 02:30 am

Isky Adventures #4Collapse )

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2016-08-22 09:10 pm
Today like... they are doing renovation on our roof... and like... the pounding above my room was like making me cry plus it was like... knocking down parts of the ceiling??? like from where it got water damaged before... like it was crumbling and falling all over my desk and into my drink and all over my laptop..... so I had to move to the kitchen for most of the day.

Either last night? Or this morning or something? I forget, I played Setsuna a little bit. a little update on thatCollapse )

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2016-08-22 01:45 am
OK, I did a little more I Am Setsuna and it's already improved a bit haha.

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But yeah, this is either going to turn into a really tedious item-hunting fest, or it's going to be an interesting game with fun mechanics.... stayyyyyyyyyy *morolians pop out* tuned.

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2016-08-21 10:18 pm



I played my first 1.5 hours of I Am Setsuna, which in this kind of game is pretty much nothing, but... it felt a little tedious to keep going at this point so I had to take a break. It sounds like this is probably what I'll play if I need a break from Dragon Age :P

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2016-08-21 07:30 pm
So, dreamingmystic gifted me I Am Setsuna (thanks again~~~~) and I'm still kinda mad at Dragon Age... So I might play that a bit tonight and then tomorrow (when I'll have more time to play things) I might try going back and forth between the two? I need to wait til I have the energy to go back and re-listen to everything I have to listen to again. Since I just heard it all I don't want to hear it all again right away lol. Also Isky sucks at convincing people of anything and I think they won't let Big Man go free lol.

I've also been kind of dabbling in Her Story, which has been really fun. It's a NVL game in the format of watching video clips in this like... video clip search thing. Like it's like you're able to access this police database of video clips of interviews with a murder suspect. But you can only access the videos through a search... the videos are indexed by their script, so when you type in the search box, all videos in which the suspect says the words you typed will appear. But only the first five videos in the database for any given search will appear. So you have to try to search for very specific things or longer strings of words. If you just type "and" or "the" or something, you'll get every video in which she says one of those words. Which can be fun because you'll definitely get 5 videos out of that.

There's no real "game," as it's a visual novel, but there are achievements for finding and watching 50%, 75%, and 100% of the video clips. I played for a couple hours total and still haven't hit the 50% mark. The videos are usually about 10-30 seconds long, some even shorter than that, very few are longer.

The gameplay basically consists of watching the videos available to you and then picking up on things you might want to hear more about, and then searching for those. For example, the first search is "murder" (I don't remember if I typed that or if it had it typed for you) and then you see a clip of her saying "you think it's a murder?" or something like that... but another will say something like "I wouldn't murder simon! I loved him!" and so you try typing "Simon" and get clips where she talks about Simon... and you learn more but I mean there's like 147 clips that say Simon apparently, but you only get the first five lol. So you have to try to find more specific things to search for.

I never really ended up searching for more than one word at a time (I maybe tried like twice) but I discovered so much and watched so much videos...

It's completely just watching videos of this woman talking, and that's it... but the story ended up being really fascinating. But there's still a lot I don't know or understand and I want to learn more. But I really recommend this game if you like these kind of simulation NVL games. The video clips are a real person actor, not like an animated character, and there seems to be a TON of content. It's the kind of game that really encourages you to get out paper and take notes while playing... I'm going to have to do that next time... I'm actually pretty excited to. I want to see if I can get all 100% of the video clips (I have no idea how many there are) on my own. There are guides and apparently a way to cheaply see all of them but I'm gonna try on my own because it's really fun discovering the story that way.

I thin it's like $7 or something on Steam... I got it for a lot cheaper in a Humble Bundle a while back and just hadn't really played it til now.

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2016-08-21 12:35 am
OK I'm pissed off at Dragon Age I like walked around town talking and stuff for over an hour and then I guess went ~too far~ near the edge of town and like 400 bandits came and slaughtered me and my last save was like... before I even started this play session because I didn't save at all and it didn't autosave during that time either so I have to do it all over again and I don't remember who I talked to before the save and after and lasdjlaksdjf

Also Isky is too nice and polite and declines rewards and stuff and donates to people and gives bandits money and crap so we have to like no money and as a player I want money but Isky can't do that because he's too nice. Also I met... the red hair girl and she was really cool and weird but talks funny and why does everyone hate Grey Wardens. I mean I know why but whyyyy

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2016-08-20 10:54 pm

Well, I watched the second preseason game. I got to see little bits of Southward so I was happy about that XD Both this week and last week at least his name was mentioned, so hopefully he'll be sticking around and I'll get to see more of him maybe even in regular season?? Last week he would have had an interception (!) if it wasn't for a flag on the play, and this week he was just credited for a tackle which is just like... idk, normal things. Safeties don't get a lot of action so hearing his name two weeks in a row sounds good XD Hopefully they'll add some more photos of the second half of the game to the website so I can search through them and see if I can find any of him.

Kevin Graf got injured again and was crying :( :( I felt so bad for him... Joe Haeg also was injured but it seems minor hopefully... All my beardy linemen are dying lol. But Mitchell Van Dyk (the one who looks like me lol) was in for most of the second half ? and I noticed he has a tattoo across his entire upper left arm and I'm curious what it looks like.

TY Hilton wasn't even dressed for the game and I only really saw him on the sidelines like once lmao.

Anyway, I played more Dragon Age so Isky's adventures continue :D Isky Adventures 1 and 2 were on tumblr but I'm going to continue them here because it's much easier and a better platform for this kind of thing.

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But yeah I'm glad I was easily able to get past that part XD After this it seems I can choose a variety of tasks to work on, one includes going to Redcliffe which I might do because I think that Arl person is supposed to be there or learn about him there and for some reason when I played before I felt like that was who I wanted to go see???

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2016-08-20 04:23 pm

I played the intro of Lost Planet 3... snow dad aheadCollapse )

So I think I'm gonna check on Isky and see how he's doing and how easily I can jump back into my Dragon Age save, and if it seems like too overwhelming, I might restart from the beginning on a lower difficulty (because there was some stuff I screwed up the first time anyway that I wouldn't mind redoing)

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2016-08-20 01:41 am
OK, looking through my Steam library, here are the things I feel like would be 'good' to play right now, with reasons why I should/shouldn't play them. + is good, - is bad, ~ is a neutral note about it

Afterfall InSanity
+ Main chara is cute
+ Pretty cool setting
- Might be too scary
~ Last time I tried to install it, it just crashed a lot?

DmC: Devil May Cry
+ I love the first DMC and the series seems to have really fun gameplay?
~ Never tried it so might not even run properly on my computer
~ Might not even be any hot charas

Dragon Age: Origins
+ Plenty of perving to be done
+ Battles are thoughtful and engaging
- Have to restart or try to pick up where I was, both of which are stressful

LaMulana
+ Played a little and it's very fun
+ Friend with good taste recommended it to me
- Not a game to perv over
- Has some arbitrary puzzle solutions

The Last Remnant
+ Akitoshi Kawazu directed it
+ I've played it before but not finished and know I love the gameplay
+ LOTS of perv opportunity lol
+ Lots of strategy
- Extremely long
- It's old so no Steam achievements, even though it had XBL achievements...

Lost Planet 3
+ The main character is a hot bearded dad
+ Other hot characters maybe???
+ Apparently considered kusoge which means I'll probably like it lol
~ Never played it so don't know if my computer will run it
~ Never played so IDK if it's really what I'm looking for right now
- Is a shooting game I think??

resident evil 4
+ BITORES MENDEZ
- He's gone shortly into the game then I have no motivation to play anymore
- Runs a little slow on my computer and I have to play windowed
- Maybe too scary

Resident Evil Revelations
+ Barry is main chara in the 2nd one?
- Maybe too scary

Ys: The Oath in Felghana
+ Very pervworthy.
+ Ys!!!
- Supposed to wait for X to play with me
- I'll probably finish it in like 2 days

Also, I have so much weird stuff in my library, like... something called "If My Heart Had Wings" which I apparently got 2 months ago but I have no idea what this is or where I got it??????? And it looks like one of those hypersexualized anime children games so I can't imagine buying it for myself...? I mean if those have good stories I usually get into them anyway but I never seek them out? Maybe it was part of a bundle?

Also I have Crypt of the NecroDancer which I have wanted for a long time so I'm really shocked I have it because if I had realized that I would have been playing it?????????????????????????????????????? Why do I have all these games??? I mean I don't have a ton but there were probably at least 5-6 games in my library I can't remember ever obtaining at all... Some others I was like "OK, I don't remember this, but this was probably a gift" or "probably came in a bundle" but these others it's just like... why do I even have this??? Though I did buy this one Humble Bundle once because it had Read-Only Memories which is a computer pun for a title and the trailer was vaporwavey and I was on a super vaporwave kick then and HAD to buy it. And all this other stuff came with it and I didn't even pay attention so maybe that's where some of this came from. Like, the bundle was a 'storytelling' bundle or something, so it was mostly NVL games it seemed? I actually never played Read-Only Memories and just played Cibele (because it was only like an hour long) and it was kinda cool for what it was. Gets way too much hate.

Anyway, looking at my list above, I think I can narrow it down by removing some. DmC is too iffy and I have a feeling it won't run well (Capcom games tend to have a lot of issues for me...), and Afterfall is definitely too scary for now? LaMulana is not pervable enough and not really what I'm looking for now I think, even though I do want to get back into it soon, and Ys, I still would rather wait for X plus it's just too short. I mean there is an achievement for beating it in under 5 hours... though I mean, I'd be doing multiple playthroughs and it's probably longer than Ark of Napishtim? Maybe? So maybe I could get a good 30 hours out of it honestly. I have 33 hours in Ark of Napishtim and honestly you could probably beat that game in 5-10 hours if you wanted to XD (I have 136 hours in Ys Origin and you can beat that game in under 10 hours as well LOL, I like replaying Ys games and doing all the optional crap).

So that leaves Dragon Age, Last Remnant, Lost Planet, and Resident Evil.

Lost Planet is 19GB and I only have like 22GB free (I reallllyyyyyy need to clean up my drive). I was gonna download it just to try it out a bit but... yowza. OK, I cleared up a bit so I have 38GB free, 10 of that was PS2 disc images. I have too much porn. I will back some of it up and delete it on Monday, I guess. A lot of that was really hard to find and I can't justify deleting it now LOL. I have a thumb drive that I keep a little bit of backup porn stuff on but it's full right now. There's some stuff on there I could easily delete. IDK if I feel like really looking through it right now, though.

Lost Planet and Revelations are the only games of those 5 that I haven't even tried. I think RE4 with its laggy nature and that it's shooter-action-oriented and doesn't have much appeal after Bitores Mendez I don't feel super interested in it right now. Lost Planet I'm very curious about trying but IDK if I will really get into it, since it's also a shooter??

Revelations apparently has more survival-horror style gameplay rather than action-style like more recent games, plus it's a port of 3DS game I think? So hopefully my computer could handle that. I mean my computer is pretty nice but it's kinda old anymore so I worry about it LOL. It might not handle Lost Planet at all though, who knows.

Dragon Age and Last Remnant are about both equally appealing. I already know Last Remnant has tons of characters I'm super into, Dragon Age has potential for that and is more of the setting I'd like to play right now (like something a bit more gritty/realistic, while Last Remnant is vibrant animu style, which I love but right now IDK)

I think Revelations is about Jill and Chris though and I'm just going to be sad it's not about Barry and wanting to finish it so I can play the 2nd one (I don't even think you need to play them in order though?) but then I think the 2nd one you have to buy episodes and I only have the first episode and yeah that just sounds not great.

So it's really down to Lost Planet, Dragon Age, and Last Remnant. I'm super tired now so I'm just going to go to sleep, but I think I might start the download for Lost Planet now, and then try it tomorrow and see how I like it, and then if I'm not so into it or my computer can't handle it, I'll make a decision about Dragon Age (whether I want to start a new game or continue my old one) and do that, and then if I can't make a decision, I'll play Last Remnant XD

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2016-08-19 11:30 pm
Wrapping up FF9Collapse )

And that's about it for FF9. My only achievements left are Excalibur II, Jump Rope, 79 ATEs, and the status effect thing. The status effect thing is just a matter of sitting with a checklist and forcing them on a character and I don't feel like doing that now. Jump Rope is ridiculous and I've already spent like 10 hours on this stupid minigame and don't feel like doing that now. The ATEs and EX2 require a second playthrough and I'm not going to do that right now either.

So, now I need to move on to another game XD I'm not sure what I even really feel like playing right now. I'd love to play Dead Rising again but 1. can't afford it and 2. it's not even out on Steam yet. DR2 would be nice but again can't afford lol. I'd be comofortable paying less than $5 for a game, but $8 is a bit much for me right now. And I'd only be comfortable with $5 for a game I knew I could get a ton of play out of. I played the original Dead Rising for at least 100 hours and could easily do that again. I'm way more motivated to play games on PC.

I could hook up the PS3 in my room and do another play of FF13 maybe. Or maybe it's a good time to start another Harvest Moon or something?

I just really feel like starting a new game but I don't really know what I want to play. Tokimeki Memorial sounds good but my brain can't think in Japanese right now. That is a game for Good Anxiety Times™ only. Maybe I should start over in Dragon Age XD or try to pick up where I left off...

The qualities I really need right now are:

  • Characters to perv over (as long as there are characters, this requirement will probably be satisfied LOL but having nice types would be good)

  • Engaging gameplay -- As in not a visual novel. Even just making strategic choices like TokiMemo or turn-based RPGs is fine. It doesn't have to be challenging, just that I have to pay attention and respond to things in some way.

  • Not TOO engaging. So not something like Mega Man or Sonic where I have to put a lot of effort in to play. Short periods of high engaging with lots of 'easy' parts (like Ys) would be fine though.

  • Not too tedious or demanding of my patience. So no MMOs or heavy-grinding games like FFE and Monster Hunter. Those are okay for when I can deal/devote.

  • Encourages thinking/strategy in some way. Even just a little.


  • I'm not really looking for a challenge necessarily now (though challenge is still fine) but I just don't want something too dull. If it's only reading, or if the game is not engaging enough, I can easily get distracted by anxiety, and if the game is too difficult or requires too much attention, I might not be able to handle it because of anxiety. I need something that is engaging enough that I'll constantly be required to put at least minimal thought into it so I'm less likely to get consumed by anxiety, but not engaging enough that I'm not able to handle it because of anxiety.

    I can handle pretty much any level of 'mental' engagement -- very complex puzzles or strategy is perfectly fine. It's 'physical' engagement that I can't do right now (reaction time, timing, etc.) The only real exception to this is rhythm games. But I don't want to play a rhythm game right now because I also want a world and characters to get absorbed with.

    Probably ideal games right now would be stuff like Skyrim or Dragon's Dogma or something, but I don't have those on PC.

    Oh, wait, I do still have Dragon Age hahaha. It's like the only big RPG like that I have, and I keep forgetting I have it because for so long I didn't have ANYTHING like that on PC lol.

    I still need to play Stardew, too. But I'm at a part where all my goals are far off and it feels 'too much' kinda like FFE feels... I think when a game gets to the point where I feel like I could play a whole play session without reaching any kind of meaningful goal, it starts to feel overwhelming to me...? I think that's also part of why I love UNLIMITED:Saga, because the gameplay is structured so that all you do is do quests that are somewhat limited in frame, and you're not meant to stop in the middle of an adventure. So you can just sit down and play one adventure, or more than one, but you always clear an adventure every play session. So there's always that feeling of accomplishing something.

    With something like "Oh, I got 1 of the 20 items I need to craft this thing..." in FFE, for example, it's not like that. That doesn't feel like an accomplishment. Same with Stardew. "Oh, I went 18 days and made some money" ok but I didn't really accomplish anything? I guess maybe this is my problem for feeling I need some kind of immediate reward? And not finding satisfaction in working toward something slowly?

    But I mean once I start playing them, I don't feel bad and I feel like I'm making progress and I like that feeling of making progress. But it's just actually starting the session that I feel overwhelmed about for some reason. Like, when I would sit down to play FF9, I always had some big thing coming up that I was excited about. "I'm going to collect all the chocograph treasures in this area!" or "I'm going to beat the next boss" or "I'm going to get this achievement" or something. It's always something that felt good to work on. "I'm going to grind at least 3 or 4 of these 17 items I need" is not an exciting reason to sit down and play. And I think that's why I hate MMOs. I enjoy them while I'm playing and in the beginning there's always something right around the corner that you're excited to work at, but eventually you know your entire play session is going to be tedium, and that's not fun. When I play a game I want it to be fun. I don't want to have to spend 10 hours of no fun so I can have an hour of fun. FF9 is always fun. Even if I don't accomplish much, the battles feel nice. The chocobo minigame is so fun. Catching frogs is fun. Playing cards is fun. Watching the cute characters is fun. It's always fun. UNLIMITED Saga is always fun. The battles are fun to play. Adventures are fun. Building the characters is fun. I can find something fun to do. Games like Skyrim are fun because even if you don't work on anything, you can find something to dick around and have fun with. Just wandering around is fun. Seeing if you can find any hidden caves or something is fun. Picking flowers is fun. It's mostly fun because you can feel immersed with that kind of game, though.

    Games that are solely about grinding lose their fun. There's not much interesting about fighting in FFE. It's pretty much a very complex slot machine. You're just pulling the lever and waiting for it to hit. It always gives you a little bit of a reward but you're just waiting for the big ones. Stardew and Harvest Moon are a little different in that there's fun in building a daily routine and stuff, but once you get late in the game you aren't building on your routine or making any more changes/decisions, it's just doing it over and over until you get to the next goal. Harvey suffers from this, too -- it's not just Stardew. But yeah, I can play 500 battles in FF13 because every single battle is fun. I can play countless stages in a rhythm game because playing the stages feels good. The game wouldn't even really have to reward me for it. It's like playing instruments or doing some other hobby IRL. I don't get money or items by playing a flute, I don't get rewards, and I don't even really feel myself getting better. It just feels good to play. Games need to have that. It can't just be about feeling good for getting rewards. Because after a while that doesn't feel good anymore because you realize it's just arbitrary and not really a reward. Because you can't use it for anything other than more grinding for "rewards." It would be like if you went to work at a job but instead of money they gave you like... tickets that let you come back to work the next day. In the beginning you might be like haha cool I got so many tickets. But then you realize that all the tickets do is give you more tickets and there's no real point. You're just doing something strenuous for a false "reward."

    There's still fun stuff about these kinds of games. Building up characters and watching your game avatar or whatever grow is fun. But these games also tend to get slower and slower where this growth requires a lot of dedication to doing completely unfun things like extremely repetitive but not engaging stuff, or waiting for RNG to hit. I love building up my farm in Harvey games and I love watching my character grow in FFE but eventually you get to a point where growing requires way too much work for it to even be fun anymore. This could easily be made up for if the battles were fun in FFE, but they're not. Because the game relies solely on the player's desire for 'rewards,' and not for any kind of gameplay. Harvey and Stardew at least are fun up until you have a solid routine that doesn't change and are just waiting for more money or a season change or something, which is usually VERY late in the game, and you can get tons of entertainment out of it before that. And that's one thing I hated about the newer Harvey games is because they made the progression forced and slow, so that the entire element of fun -- making your own decisions and forming changing routines -- is completely gone. It's just grindfest from the start. Not good. HMDS was really the last 'good' Harvest Moon game honestly. Some others have been tolerable -- ANB and SOS were at least addictive in the beginnings. The Lost Valley was great in theory but didn't give you enough freedom from the start. If I didn't enjoy the terraforming so much, I would have hated that game (that's why I have more hopes for ... whatever the new Harvey is from Natsume; I forget the name lmao), and Stardew uses that 'older' formula where you can really work on what you want at your own pace, which is good and makes it very fun. Also poly dating and same-sex marriage.

    Anyway, I think the main thing stopping me from playing Dragon Age is because I don't want to jump back into my old game really because I forget so much about it and won't even remember how to play, but I also don't want to go through the beginning again because I think it would be really tedious? I really enjoyed the game but it wasn't until later that I realized the game was kind of on-rails and it was more a Fire-Emblem-style progression, where you're kind of limited to the path the game puts ahead for you, so you want to try to optimize all your opportunities. I didn't really know that going in (or maybe it's not like that later?) so I just kinda did whatever I wanted and didn't worry about messing up or missing out on things. I think it would be good to start over with the right mindset? Maybe play a different kind of character and then come back to Isky later?

    Though DA might be a little too challenging for me right now. But I guess I could stop being stubborn and play on something other than the hardest difficulty :P TBH I would really love to play Dragon's Dogma right now but I only have it on PS3 so I could only really play it at certain times on weekdays, and I want something I can play on weekends, too. So something I have on PC would be nice.

    Dragon's Dogma is $18 on sale on Steam right now. That's the cheapest it ever gets. It's never been below $18 lol. I don't know why. It's pretty old now and isn't incredibly popular. And that's only 40% of the full price. $18 is way more than I'm willing to spend on a game, even something I already know I love like DD.

    Maybe I'll wait until I get home and start Rune Factory 4 again? I've started it so many times but I still don't ever finish it XD I kinda don't feel like playing that, though. There's just SO MANY THINGS in that game, that I think it would get overwhelming fast XD Yeah, I don't want to play that lol. IDK what I'm going to do XD

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2016-08-19 08:38 pm
OK so I meant to talk about this before but I got like... ridiculously wrapped up in FF9...

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But YEAH, in non-terrible topics, Steam is having a Capcom sale this weekend and a lot of cool stuff is cheap and I would really love it but I have no money and it sucks. Bionic Commando and Bionic Commando ReArmed are both on sale for $2 each (or $3 combined) -- I have both on PC and XBox and highly recommend them. BioCom is a third person shooter and ReArmed is a side-scrolly platform game with a lot of shooting (think Mega Man) but the theme of both is that most of your mobility is not from running and jumping, but from swinging from things with your arm tether thing. It's REALLY fun, and there's hot characters in them.

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I was thinking "Hey, I should do individual posts about each person on the chart and then the chart can link to each person's post!" but uh THERE ARE SO MANY ALREADY that seems really ridiculous LOL.

I wish Resident Evil 4 ran better on my computer... Capcom games are pretty nice in that instead of being unplayable when they are laggy, they actually just smoothly slow down the game, so you can play it's just slower. RE4 runs ALMOST full-speed, unlike Strider which is REALLY freaking slow. If I play windowed it's almost good, and it's perfectly playable and doesn't feel bad to play and like it's not so slow I feel encumbered or frustrated or something, it's just that I know it's slow and I feel like I'm 'cheating,' even though I'm terrible at these kinds of games and I mostly just want to see the hot characters and stuff, and having the game a little slowed down would probably help me enjoy it a little more because I get really frustrated with these games XD Also I have little motivation to play after killing Bitores Mendez (which I think he's like the first boss LOL) because like the main reason I even play RE4 is because of him LOLOLOL. At least in RE1 (which is on Steam! The remake! I didn't know! If anyone wants to buy it for me during the Capcom sale, feel free!! Or Dead Rising 2!! LOL) the game revolved around you rescuing either Barry or Rebecca who are both hot as hell and look great in that game so you get to see them a lot and get an ending about them. Actually thinking about it, I don't know if I ever beat the game on the remake??? I've beat the original PlaySation game with both Jill and Chris (though my friend Ricky had to help a LOT) but on GameCube I don't know if I ever even finished it once... XD It's hard!! I'm really bad at those games, plus I get scared easily and then have to turn the game off because I'm too scared to continue playing... >_>! But I'm so familiar with the setting/story of RE1 from playing it many times myself and watching Ricky play and watching speedruns and stuff that I feel like I'd be familiar/comfortable with it that I could do it now?? Maybe?? hahaha no

But yeah I kinda feel like playing a zombie game or something recently; I wish it was easier to organize a time to play L4D... I have this little foursome group that is theoretically supposed to play games together (it's me, dreamingmystic, lila_werewolf, and my brother) and like, being able to play with my brother is easy because we live together, but X and Dels have very hectic lives right now and not only are they busy but they're also having high stress levels so they don't always have the energy to play games? But we played L4D like... once lol. It was pretty fun but X had some kind of lag issues and wasn't really able to play (she was playing, but her game wasn't really synced with us, so for us in our games, she was always just wandering off somewhere in a corner running into walls and doing nothing)

But yeah and then there's me who has to prepare mental energy to do literally anything and can't just do things spontaneously, and my brother who will randomly ditch out on plans if he thinks he might get laid or get drugs or money or something, so the four of us all being available and organized at once is like... never. And we're always like 'Oh, someday when things die down' or whatever but it's like... hahaha life. But I still think there will be a day we can all play together easily, because I'm working toward getting my mental health in order, and X and Dels are always actively working on their lives and a big reason they're hectic now is because they're in that transitional period and making things better for the future. And my brother is still a little shit lmfao but he's still available often and would definitely make time for Castle Crashers at least.

It'd be cool if we had stuff we could play 2-player sessions in? I'm really not feeling an MMO right now but maybe when Stardew update comes out we can play together just 2 at a time. I like playing single-player games and can't stand playing online games with randos, but it's nice to be able to play games with people I know, because socializing even with my friends and family is already difficult, but when we can do something together that I like, then it makes it a lot easier for me?

Speaking of, my mom is going to take me to a Colts game and IDK if I said it here yet or not X_X It's like... yay football but I have to spend the day with my mom? It's usually enjoyable enough but I don't see her enough where it feels comfortable anymore and she often says things that stress me out. I used to be exactly like her though so you'd think I'd be more tolerant of it, but... anxiety is hard LOL.

OK, I've typed way too much. I need to stop.

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2016-08-18 10:04 pm
Ok remember when I said Vivi was probably stronger than Dagger? I lied. Dagger's Diamond Dust is doing 8000-9999 damage against Grand Dragons, while Vivi's Blizaga is doing like 5000-7000. If Dagger is in trance, the summon does 9999 consistently.

Blizaga also costs 24MP and Shiva costs only like 18 or something. I am on my phone and can't check easily right now but it is less than Blizaga. So Dagger uses less MP for significantly more damage. She also has non-elemantal damage (and yes, Bahamut is stronger than Flare or Meteor, though I think in this case Bahamut costs more than Flare, but less than Meteor, iirc).

The only time Eiko's Holy outclasses dagger is when Dagger can't exploit elemental weakness. But she usually can, and even then Bahamut is just as good as Holy, it just costs more MP.

In fact, when exploiting weaknesses, Dagger's eidolons consistently do like 8000+ damage against every enemy, and that is without utilizing the Boost support ability (and idk if Concentrate affects summons). If concentrate affects it and you use boost, she would probably get close to 9999 against pretty much any opponent at any time. Collecting ores to power up her abilities is way easier than catching frogs or stealing a ton like you need to do to power up other abilities.

Plus, eidolons deal even damage to all enemies, unlike Vivi's magic which divides the damage if you target more than one enemy at a time, and stuff like Thievery can only target a single enemy.

So Dagger us stronger than pretty much everyone in the game once you are able to collect the gems to power up her eidolons. She also reaches that potential faster than other characters, though early in the game she doesn't have access to eidolons and is overall not built for fighting. But as the game progresses she becomes one of the best offensive characters, kinda how her character transforms from a self-questioning proper princess to a confident adventurer.

Anyway, as for cheevo progress, I went and ate frogs but needed 8 more (thinking on that now, I could have just went back and caught the "parents" of every marsh, oops) to get to 99, so I went to the forest outside Dali since strong enemies don't seem to pop up there, and I fought battles while doing lots of Goblin Punch and used the AP to learn the last two abilities I needed for the Pillar of Support achievement. One was some obscure Amarant thing, and the other was actually Absorb MP on Quina which I was really surprised I hadn't learned. I also nabbed the rest of the ragtime quiz while doing it.

After that I went back to marshes and ate frogs until I got 99, defeated Quale and got the Gastro fork. So that was 5 achievements down!

I wasn't really sure what to do so I synthed more ores to get Ifrit powered up with 99... Topaz or whatever it is (my phone just autocorrected topaz to tops... It was spelled correctly lol...)

Now I am trying out a method of autoleveling I thought of... I took one of the little hair bands I got for when my beard was long and put it around the analog sticks to make Zidane run in circles, and then used an autoclicker program and lined up the mouse so it could click on both "attack" and the enemy's name. I have the game speed up "cheat" turned on so it goes faster.

This is exactly what I was doing before except I was manually playing... Running in circles and mashing out the enemies. Instead of just attack, though, I was having Zidane steal, Eiko extract ores, and Vivi and Dagger attack with magic. It was a little slower but I was powering up Thievery and collecting ores that way. And it made it a little more engaging and fun trying to see how fast I could input the commands and memorize the menu order instead of just mashing attack. Though I guess I could have put the cursor to memory mode and still just mashed the confirm button... In fact, if I could get my controller to auto-press circle button somehow, I would do that?

Anyway, I have it grinding outside Daguerro on that little plateau. At first I was trying outside Gizamaluke's Grotto on Popos Heights, but Zidane would eventually get stuck running in mostly forest and fighting Garuda was not productive, plus there is a minor risk of them killing the party with Stop?? Maybe?? Anyway, I switched over to the place outside Daguerro because you will still encounter Grand Dragons most of the time, but sometimes run into Gimme Cat, which is better than hitting Garuda most of the time, even though it only gives you 1exp... You do get lots of money and sometimes ore for killing it though.

Haha, I just looked up and the achievement for 1000 battles just popped. For 10000 I guess I can do this somewhere else where there are more enemies in the encounters, preferably weak ones to go even faster... Maybe outside Treno or Dali. But I want to get my main party (Zidane, Dagger, Vivi, Eiko -- I went with an all-magic party this game XD) to level 99 for the achievement, and then try fighting Ozma.

In the time since I started writing this post, Zidane has gone from level 71 to level 79. Btw I have Auto-Regen and the anti-status support abilities, and from regen alone there is no real threat of my party dying I don't think. I should probably stop and save sometimes just in case. It also kinda sucks because I can't use the computer while this is going, because the game has to be in-focus and the mouse can't be moved so that the autoclicker works.

I guess I will eat something and respond to my notifs on here and then see how it is going. If I can get to level 99 soon, I can leave it on for the 10k kills overnight now and then, and it shouldn't be too hard to get. Idk who thought putting such a grindy achievement in the game was a good idea. Getting to level 99 requires way less than 10k kills... In fact when I beat the game I only had about 400 kills... And that was with a lot of subquests done, too.

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2016-08-18 08:27 pm
I finished FF9 lol. I haven't been updating because I have just been playing... I literally stayed up for like 40 hours straight doing almost nothing but playing it?? I mean I did do other things, I take breaks, but... just to do stuff like eat or whatever... I'm stressed out over the doctor thing still so getting completely absorbed in something is nice. Especially since at this point there's nothing I can do for like... a month.

Anyway, I'm getting kind of tired of typing up a bunch of stuff for all my screencaps so I'm not going to post as many caps this time... and since I've mostly been talking about what I like about this game, I guess I should probably talk about what I don't like, too XD So I will mention that... as much as I really love FF9 (it's one of my fav games of all time, for a long time I said it was my #1 fav game).

Anyway, instead of trying to be analytical and stuff I'm just going to basically post caps of the best parts and characters/monsters I think are cool or hot or whatever and fangirl over it LOL

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2016-08-15 11:07 pm

So, uh, I've been just playing FF9 and I keep playing til I have to sleep or whatever and not making time to make an entry oops lol. I actually played through all of Disc 2 since the last time I updated I think LOL Not that there are discs on the PC version, but I just remember where Discs 1 and 2 end XD I don't remember where Disc 3 ends though.

But yeah, uh, there's a lot, so I guess let's just get to it... XD

Spoilers will be more frequent and more major now since a lot goes down during these parts and I will talk about it XD

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2016-08-13 01:06 am
Just finished watching the finale of Great British Baking Show. I kinda wanna go back and watch the earlier ones (in the US, we only got to see the three most recent ones, and hopefully we'll see the upcoming 2016 series next year in 2017... I don't know why they make us wait a whole year. It's not like they need to re-edit the show or anything?) It was a really fun finale and I would have been happy if anyone won, really. I was glad to see my fav Paul come back for the tea party at the end XD And he picked the winner correctly hahaha.



Look at this adorable man XD

Anyway, they didn't actually make any foods that sounded appealing today though XD But I don't really like sweets so I don't really think most stuff is appealing when they make it... I like bread week LOL. But still, I just like the way the stuff looks and love watching them make it. And I love how nice everyone is to each other and supports each other despite their rivalry. When they tried to make an American version, there was a mean guy that trash talked and was rude and cheated and sabotaged people's stuff and pretty much bullied everyone out of the competition until he won. It was annoying. But we got to have Jeff Foxworthy on ours so I guess there's that :P

I was gonna post about my FF9 progress tonight but... I'm too tired XD I'm just about to enter Treno (well, I might end up doing a lot of random exploring and stuff outside first... I forget exactly how much you can do before entering the city... I already went back to Dali and played some cards and got the treasure chest behind the farmer lady now that she's moved... I guess it depends on how much chocobo stuff there is to do here, plus I think I can find the friendly Ghost before going into the city... hopefully you can get the red chocobo or whatever it is at this point already? Because I want to try to get back to Lindblum and synthesize some stuff... Choco is light blue now though :D)

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2016-08-12 07:18 pm
Like I said last night, I'll post about FF9 today XD But first, today is our anniversary. We went to the mackerel place hahaha. They also had flounder. It's a buffet so it's all-you-can-eat. I ate so much... I had 3... pieces... of flounder (idk what to call them, it was like just a big cut of the fish down the middle?) and like at least 15 pieces of mackerel sushi. I had a few other things but eating the raw flesh of a dead fish is the best lmfaoooo. Well, only really mackerel. I mean other raw fish is good but mackerel is just so amazing XD Then we came back to Dennis's and he gave me a box of Cheez-It as present and I gave him nothing. Now he's sitting with heat pad because he is in pain. And now I'm on the computer. And that's about that.

So I'm gonna go through FF9 and try to remember the stuff I wanted to talk about while posting my screenies :P

There are early-game spoilers ahead. I'm mostly going to keep to opinions of the game/characters/etc. and not really try to detail the story too much, so I think if you haven't played it, it won't really give too much away. But still some stuff will be revealed anyway, and you'll see random screens from the game (though without too much context, as I'll just assume the reader either knows what it is already or doesn't want to know the spoilery details XD)

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So yeah, that's about it lol. I had some other things to say but I forgot oops. I have way more screencaps on Steam (and way way more in the local files) so you can check them out there I guess if you wanna see more. I like to kinda take them and make little comments as I go.

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2016-08-12 04:45 am
Um. I mostly played FF9 today. I got mad at FFE and I've felt like starting a new thing and still waiting for X so we can start Oath in Felghana, so I was like 'I'll just do the stupid jump rope thing in FF9' because I didn't know what to do. And I failed at jump rope many times. Then I looked up about it and asked on forum, and you can get all the other achievements without doing jump rope. Like, I thought for the S-Rank Treasure Hunter thing you had to find like EVERY ITEM EVER including the jump rope trophy thing, but YOU DON'T, so I decided to actually... play the game!! I've played FF9 like at least 4 or 5 times through now, but this is first time on the PC version.

I got to just before Gizamaluke's Grotto before I stopped... I played for like 9 hours;;;

I don't have too much to comment about it... I have a ton of screenshots but I'll have to bother hosting them later and then maybe I'll talk about it then. I don't know if you can hotlink screenshots you sent to Steam?

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Ooooooh, from the entry preview, it looks like you can!! This will be REALLY convenient... now I can upload screenshots as I play, then use that as a memory of what I wanna talk about and just copy them all to here... that's great XDDDD And I can do this with all Steam games, too~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Nice nice nice. I'm kinda excited haha.

I'm a bit tired though, so I'll write about the game tomorrow, I guess. Though tomorrow is also me and Dennis's anniversary. Maybe he'll want to go eat mackerel lmao lmao we always go to the place with the mackerel for special things XD Though he's been fairly unwell/immobile recently so maybe not.

I need to like... shave and shower... I stayed up way too late playing this game lol.

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2016-08-11 02:15 pm
Cool things about Stardew Valley that aren't in Harvest Moon:
  • Poly dating

  • There is an intentionally homeless freegan guy as a character

  • Kiss scenes with all your girlfriends/boyfriends

  • Slime monster pets

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2016-08-11 02:58 am
I keep meaning to post here but I keep feeling like "Oh, I'll post when I have more things to say" but then I end up sleeping or something and then doing that again the next day?? lolol

I've been mostly just playing Final Fantasy Explorers... I finished some more outfits and have been focusing on building my Dragoon character who is really fun. I even made notes today of all the stuff I need for him like the mutations and stuff. It's... so much to keep track of though T_T I also played with zaddy who helped me farm items and do some tough quests yay XD

I think what I want to do next is make a better gun and some medium armor and revive my Ranger build. Or wait, were they bows? I don't even remember. Some kind of ranged attacks, idk. I need to figure out if it was a bow or a gun now LOL. It's been so long XD

If my brother does eventually get the game (he prolly won't tho honestly) I kinda wanna see if he'll want to do a black & white playthrough where he plays black mage and I play white mage for the whole game (up until the ending at least, then we can do whatever). I suggested if he gets it that we both make a secondary file to play together, so we don't get ahead of each other.

I also started playing that new Pokemon fan game called Pokemon Uranium. I only played a little though.

There's some cute stuff:



But a lot of it is weird. I have more to say about it but I don't feel like it.

I've been feeling like starting a new game recently. Not this Pokemon Uranium thing though. Like, not necessarily a new new game, but just starting a new game. I think I'm giving up on Romancing SaGa 3 for now. I love that game but I always eventually get kind of burned out on it? It's not even really burned out; it's like I'm intimidated to go forward? I think it's because the game is in Japanese and I just don't have the energy to read everything, because it's not natural like English; a lot of mental energy goes into reading/understanding the game. If it was something like Tokimeki Memorial, that's one thing, because they say really common everyday stuff, but the stuff in a fantasy game is not common stuff that I'm going to be super familiar with and sometimes I have to use a dictionary or just not understand parts and the entire game is about picking up on hints and figuring out what to do based on those hints so YEAH it's a lot of effort. There is a fan translation but ... I just don't like playing it because I don't agree with some of the translations... it's not BAD, it's just because I know what the original says it bothers me and I get easily upset about stuff like that. Like it's not even major stuff, it's petty things like in the beginning of the game you choose a star sign and it determines your base stats... in the translation they call it a job class LOL. Like, who even cares, it's completely irrelevant after that initial selection and you never see/hear of it again LOL And then I don't like some of the name translations like Katalina is "Katrina" and Wod is "Wood" and stuff like that XD

I really wish you could put your PSP games in your Vita somehow, because I'd play TokiMemo 4. I love that game, but playing PSP is so annoying. I don't think I want to play something particularly long. Maybe I'll play another runthrough of Legend of Legacy?

I don't feel like playing something big/long like Harvest Moon. I don't feel like playing something as small as a Mega Man game, though. I guess another play of Ark of Napishtim wouldn't be so bad. I still fantasize about the characters a lot (mostly Agares, I've gotten rEALLY into Agares for some reason, probably because I headcanon that he pervs over that giant frog monster, but also probably because he's a fat sleazeball and for some reason I like that type? Plus he's got the bald-but-side-hair -- does this have a name?!?! -- and fancy clothes and a beard...)

I kinda want to make a "perfect save" in the game with max level, max money, etc. But max level will be... ridiculous to obtain. I think the max level is 60. You can get to about 54-ish before enemies start giving your 1 EXP each (EXP scales with your level, and the final boss is only like level 50 or 51, so you're not really intended to get to 60 anyway). At that point, it's just a matter of trying to fight as many enemies as you can quickly since they're all giving you 1 anyway. And you're needing to get like 5,000 EXP or something for a level up XD But there's this room with a ton of bats where you can probably get about 10 EXP in a couple seconds? You'd easily max money while doing that. I don't know about maxing your emelas. It also wouldn't be too hard to max your items. The main thing you have to do is make sure you don't ever use your blue potions or whatever the highest level ones are, because items max at 9, and there are exactly 9 of those in the game.

But then you have Catastrophe mode where you don't get any items, but you can buy stat-boosting items and max your stats, something you can't do in the regular mode. So should I do two perfect game saves, one on each mode? My first time playing through the game, I played on Nightmare-Catastrophe (and I feel like if I'm going to do this, it should be on Nightmare difficulty since that's the highest? Or maybe do it on every difficulty LMFAO), and I can't just continue that and perfect game, because I missed some missable stuff. I didn't get the letter for Baslam from ... the one guy (I forget a lot of names already), and I gave the alcohol to the Romun guy in the tavern instead of the drunk fisherman dude, which means I got money instead of the item you eventually get for that little subquest. I don't even know if I still have a save from before going to the final area (where you can't come back from) anyway.

BTW today I made curry and it was great. I talked about this on tumblr and meant to post it on here, but ... well in short I think I've got it down where I can make 8 meals out of curry for around $8-10. That's not bad at all. I just can't let my brother have any lolol. But yeah basically I'm making just mushroom and spinach curry, so I bought 4 large white mushrooms, a bunch of spinach, and an onion. Actually I should get 2 onions next time because 1 was not very much (using only a quarter onion at a time, making 2 servings at a time... 1/8 onion is not a lot of onion in a serving XD) And of course curry blocks, which come 8 blocks in a pack for around $4-5. Anyway, I can use one mushroom, about 1/4 of the bunch of spinach, and 2 blocks of curry (and I guess a little onion) and it's enough to eat one meal and then save the rest leftover for another. Of course, I'm eating a whole cup of rice with it, too.

My brother is going through the rice like crazy though -_- He is really wasteful with food like... he only eats about 1 cup of rice, but he makes like... 4-5 cups at a time. Then dumps it all out. Every single time. And he says "well maybe I'll want some later." but never does. He's been doing this for like a month. We had a 50lb bag of rice and it's going so fast... and he makes rice at least once a day. He spends all his money on drugs so he eats my food and my dad's food X_X My dad blames me for the missing food, so he's more likely to eat my dad's food though, because no one yells at him. If he eats my food, I chew him out lol. Especially because I can barely even afford to feed myself. And when he eats my food, then I end up going hungry.

Anyway, I'm glad with my ability to make 8 servings of curry from one box of blocks and just a few ingredients. If I make it at night I can eat the leftovers the next day. I try to keep a food budget of around $15/week, but if I can get closer to $10, that's good. With 8 meals of curry for around $10, I can spend the remaining $5 on stuff like bologna and bread (which is $2 total and makes many meals lol) and random things I might need/want like potato chips, or a new can of coffee or something. I bought wasabi natto and instant noodles this week, natto is kinda expensive. But I can get 3 small meals out of one pack of natto which is like $3-4. Instant noodles are wonderful but I'm usually hungry after I eat them and have to eat something else, too. Or eat like 3 packs of noodles and then feel sick.

I got a new kind of noodles this week... it was some kind of curry flavor noodles. Not so good. But worth a try. You're actually supposed to drain the water and then mix the sauce to make it more 'curry'-like, but it said you could also not drain and eat like soup if you wanted (like how most instant noodles are). Since I like eating it like soup I decided to do that, but the flavor was kind of weak. But probably because it's not meant to be watery like that. So I guess I should have made it the 'right' way first.

I also got a Shin Ramyun Black which is like... $1.30... a lot for instant noodles, but they are SO GOOD. It's leagues above other noodles. In quality, I'd say Shin Ramyun is even better than Sapporo Ichiban... but Shin Ramyun only comes in very spicy varieties, which is good sometimes but not all the time. Sapporo Ichiban I can eat literally whenever and be satisfied lmao. (They're also pretty expensive for instant noodles, usually around $0.75-$1.00, though at SakuraMart we used to be able to get them for $0.49... though I think they've raised the price there to around $0.65)

I could save more money if I only ate bologna sandwiches but I'm getting so tired of eating those. Plus they're so cheap I feel encouraged to splurge on other things and end up just buying a bunch of stupid stuff, or end up overspending because I feel like I can afford expensive things like four cases of soda or something lmfao.

I don't know why I typed so much about food.

I really wish I had a keyboard. Like, not the one that's part of the laptop. Because I hate having to reach up to the laptop. The computer desk is not made for that. The keyboard shelf thing is where the keyboard should be. Having to reach up to the top part where the monitor should go, and then further up because the front part of the laptop is empty space and the touch pad thing, it's really uncomfortable. I don't like playing keyboard/mouse games too long because my left hand gets so tired of sitting like that. Typing a lot like this is cumbersome, too, lol. I really want a Das Keyboard but... I don't have money for a keyboard XD

Somehow I got very distracted from writing this post and ended up on the Steam screenshots page for Final Fantasy V and someone referred to Dorgann as 渋い (sibui)... this is my first encounter with this word but since it's Dorgann and like who the heck EVER talks about Dorgann EVER besides me, I decided to look it up (if it was some other character I might have just bypassed it). I've probably actually bypassed this word before because it looks familiar lmfao.

ANYWAY, dictionary was not helpful at all, but I just did a search for the word and looked at images and saw how people were using it in context and stuff and well, I can't really come up with a great translation for this word in English, but it seems to mean like... refined? More specifically, it seems to mean like... 'attractively aged,' like... that the attractive appeal comes from the refinement of aging. It's hard to really describe, and it seems lots of people have different opinions on who is sibui, but people at least seem to use it to refer to men who are hot specifically because they're older.

I saw a ranking site thing that ranked (older) men based on four qualities: funny, attractive, cool/stylish, and sibui. Attractiveness seemed to refer to perhaps a personality, and how people rated the sibui-ness of the people kind of helped me get an idea of what it meant. I also saw a thread on an image board that was like 'post sibui older guys and let's swoon~' and like everyone posted really different guys lmfao

I feel like there's a bit of... uniqueness or particularly outstanding quality required? Like maybe something between 'refined' and 'distinguished' would be where sibui lies. It's kinda hard to get an exact hold on it, but I feel like characters like Marquis Ondore would be pretty much exactly who sibui refers to. But some people post some really plain or frumpy types as sibui... so I feel like really the best way to describe it is just attractive due specifically to aged qualities, which means sibui is a word made for me.

There seem to be other uses for the word, such as something best described as 'austere' or 'stern' -- like you'd refer to Naoki Kobayashi this way (though I'd use both meanings to refer to him honestly)



And then further meanings that don't necessarily refer to people/appearances, like harsh or bitter... especially referring to flavors or colors as 'harsh,' people making sour faces would be making sibui faces. Stuff like that.

But it seems the most common usage for the word is to specifically refer to an attractiveness in men that comes specifically from having aged. XD People into old men seem to use it just to refer to the men they like, but general people use it to refer to people with a very refined/distinguished look (I guess because that's conventionally attractive), and a kind of refined/distinguished look not necessarily due to age seems to fall under a general 'sibui' usage as well. Like someone like Eagle from Street Fighter, who isn't necessarily old nor handsome because of his age, but has a very refined/distinguished look.

Wow I've been writing this entry for like 2 hours now. I mean part of that was being distracted and somehow ending up on the FFV Steam community page (I can't even tell you what I was doing before that that lead to that...) and then part of that was trying to get a handle on the meaning of sibui, but... just wow. I guess I'll stop now. I should probably sleep.

(Suddenly I'm wondering if sibui would do well as a porn search term -- I only recently got the idea of searching for porn using Japanese, though Japanese porn streaming sites are pretty terrible in quality; haven't tried image searching much, just bing video searches... I should probably try on more Japanese-oriented search engines too...)

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Thaao Hanshew
2016-08-09 04:31 am
OK I ended up trying out Dragoon and it was pretty fun XD

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IDK why I'm not sleeping T_T

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